Have I Always Been This Annoying?

Over the past six months I have been doing some soul searching. It seems important to complete a new personal inventory now that I am in my thirties. There are changes that I have made in my life that I am proud of. For example, I am working on being more honest with myself and others because I want people to really know me.
There are also realizations I have made about myself that I am not so proud of. It was about six months ago that I actually listened to the words that were coming out of my mouth on the phone. I am amazed that no one has called me out on how freaking annoying I am.
It's as if I am in a constant competition with my friends in my head. Let's say that my best friend tells me that she had a great time trying something new. Rather than be excited for her, I think I get jealous. I instantly start talking about what I have done that is similar. Personally, I don't think she was calling to hear about me at all. She just wanted to share her excitement. So why is it that I feel like this? Jealousy is incredibly unattractive and now that I have realized my faults, you think it would be easier to fix them. But just tonight, I hung up the phone thinking... "Oh my gosh, I wish I could do that conversation over and just be happy for my friend."
It's as if I am afraid for someone to be more successful, or a better mom, or thinner or tanner or more fashionable or anything MORE than me.
My goal is to kick the jealousy habit and be happy for people. There is enough room in this world for us all to be fabulous. Time to get over myself and on with my life.